Thursday, May 22, 2008

Just Being Me

I try to be who you want me to be ,
But it's just not me ,
I'm not perfect , can't you understand ?

You say I'm hot-tempered and is bad at style ,
That I cry too much and I'm immature ,
But's that's who I want to be .

Whatever you say , I won't listen ,
You try to break me down but I'm strong ,
If you leave me , I won't cry ,
Cause I know I got friends to support me by .

My friends , they are not like you ,
They stick by me no matter what happens ,
They don't fake just to be cool ,
People just accept them for who they are .

I don't need you anymore in my life ,
I've just realized ,
You are not who I thought you were ,
That you're just one of the little stones that I pass by ,
So now it's time to say goodbye .

...kat...alwayz&foreverz...

Just Trying Too Hard by Little Kat

...just a little sneak peek ( did i spell that correctly ? ) of the story i'm writing ... =)



Prologue ….

Sometimes , when you’re sitting on the chair out of the garden thinking of something . You don’t actually realize that time flies .When you are just starting a new year , another new year is about to come . It sounds weird and strange in a way but it’s true . Don’t you agree ?

We usually keep ourselves busy with work , school and stuff and keep forgetting what really matters in our life . Family and friends especially . Those who we really care and love are those who which usually we abandon . Most of the time , life’s fears get the better of us . You get what I mean ?

We are scared of a lot of stuff . Our fears . We are worried about how people look at us and what they think about us ? We’re scared they’ll realized that we actually have flaws when we seem so perfect . Until at one point , the fear is nothing more but ourselves .

I’m not trying to be an expert or anything . It’s just how I feel and I’m sure sometimes you feel like that too . Just trying too hard . It happens to all of us . Everyone . No one is singled out in this matter . Even the celebrities and the all-time super stars face this . The bitchy people who seem so evil even worries about this stuff ! Imagine !? Top super stars that get like fifty thousand a month or maybe a week worries about this little stuff ?

There’s nothing to be ashamed . All of us are the same . Each of us have flaws either in or out . They say flaws make us ‘ ugly’ or maybe ‘ not perfect . Who is ? But flaws are the ones that make us perfect in a way . We think about the negative part of ourselves so much that we forget our positive side . About why people like us ? Why people always want to be with us ? There must be a hidden something inside of us . Something special that no one else have . Something that makes people attracted to us . Not in the ‘ boy-girl’ way but in a ‘friend-friend’ way . Maybe one day someone just have to wake us up and tell us ‘ Hey , everything’s fine ! You’re perfect just the way you are !”

If you are reading this , I personally want to tell that you are perfect the way you . You don’t have to change just because someone wants you to . In the end , the real you is all that matters . The you that people really treasures .

Sometimes , people will just tease you and call you names and suck you in a hole . Hidden from the world . You must always know that in life, that kind of things happen and there are also people who will be there to guide you . When you are walking the road , you take a look back and you’ll see someone smiling at you . Sort of a way telling you that you’re not alone . Learn from the past and take a step forward . Don’t fall down and give up instead stand up again and walk up straight . If you fall again , get up again .

“Those who cannot remember the past are condemned to repeat it”
George Santayana ( The Life of Reason , Volume 1 : 1:1905 )

Let the past be the one to guide you to face the future . Learn from the past and use it as a weapon to face the future .

hope u liked it ...=)
...kat...alwayz&foreverz...

Diary : Time Really Flies

Hello , everyone ! Today I'm so happy ! It's my last day of exam ..my mid-year exam and then it'll be da holidays !!! Yahoooo !!!

I'll be going to two places during the holidays ! Universiti Malaya and also my church camp ! I'm so happy ! =) Actually , it's kind of weird to know how time passes so fast ! January , my first day to school and now it's already going to be June . In another six months more , it will be 2009 ! Which that 6 months would actually feel like 6 days ...hahaha ...

I think I would spend by holidays by writing my story . My latest teen story that's I'm currently working on ...hahaha.... And ya , I'll be posting a little bit of my story in my next post =)

...kat...alwayz&foreverz...