Diary: Crazyness

Crazyness, does that word even exists? I wonder but who the hell cares ...haha. Here I am, writing in my blog when I'm supposed to be sleeping. As most of you might know, today is 5th of Jan,2009 and it is now 6.35 a.m. It'll be my first day of school in my new class and like more than 10 new students will be joining. Sad to say, around 7 or 8 pupils from my class went down because of their bad results. Well, I guess school life is like that. I hope they do learn and maybe can jump back up when they reach Form 3.

Excitement was the last thing I thought I would be feeling about starting school cause the holidays are like ...no homework... and that is the best part about it. Just around two days ago, I started to get excited about school. No, not because of my friends or teachers but just school I guess. The feeling of being a student again!

Hurting, my leg hurts and I'll be limping to school the next few days. ...a great way to start the new year... To think about it again, I actually don't really mind. I'll get to go to school and make the Form 1 suffer *evil laughters* since I'm going to be senior for the afternoon session ...woohoo...

Dreaming , still stuck here. There's a 50/50 change of me going to Australia next year or maybe the year after next year cause of something...something. My mom is soooo going to be famous at Australia! She's coming out on the Australian tv. ' Yeah' . Maybe one day I'll appear on tv also...haha.... Recently, I went to wikipedia to check out about Australia. You know what?! Australian edu is like the best 8th or 4th in the world ! It would be great if I get the opportunity to study there. Maybe can go there after I take my PMR ? After this, my wishes for all my Christmases and Birthdays will be this . If its God's plan for me to study there, nothing can stop it from happening but if it's not, then maybe God have another plan for me, a greater plan. Nice to know, no matter what happens that HE will still be with me every step that I take. =)

Still dreaming about how nice would it be if my wish came true. Anyway, I wouldn't be so bad to bore you with it. I'll be going to sleep in a while more and will be waking up in two hours to 'bertugas' at school. So this is me logging off . Still dreaming and dreaming and dreaming. ...ok ...!!! i'll stop dreaming and just think about the fact that today is the first day of school ... !!! ...woohooo ...yeah !

Here's a video for ya'll 2 enjoy!

How to Join a Group/Gang? (The New Trend at School)

As you might know , there are many kinds of groups at school . One would be what people call the gedik group ( girls who are interested in fashion , style , the latest stuff and flirting with guys ... these kind are usually very pretty ) ...i'm not saying that if you are interested in fashion ..it means you are gedik . The second kind is the gossip group ( girls who obviously love to gossip , always talk about guys ) . The third common kind of group is the little girls group ( girls who look innocent , talk innocent but isn't innocent ....and they like to play ....like always ...and shout and jump all the time )

Did I miss any ? Oh , ya ! There's one more kind of group ..the ' don't ya try to mess with us ' . This group usually consist of 5 or more members or maybe 3 . This is the group which almost everyone is scared of . They have the looks and attitude . They are the kind who loves to break the rules . If you mess with one of the group members , the whole group will come after you . Warning : Don't ever mess with this kind of group !

Usually , groups have a person that they hate . That the whole group hates . In order to join the group , you MUST also hate that person eventhough that person could be your best friend . In order to keep conversations going in a group , they gossip . Mostly about students . About how that girl dresses , how she laughs and blah ....blah . Why ? Just for the fun of it . Because they think that its soooo funny talking about other people's flaws and mistakes .

I'm not saying I don't gossip at all . I'm trying to gossip less cause I realized that it doesn't bring any benefits . I used to gossip a lot ! But since now , I don't often gossip . I don't have a group . Is it important to have a group at school . Kononnya ...the friends that you can 'click' with . At the end of the day , you'll find out the real reason why you can 'click' with them because ...all of you gossip !!!!!!!! It's so fun talking bad stuff about people and not looking at yourself , eh ? I know why people gossip cause I was one them before . When you gossip ....you'll feel good about yourself . I'll give you an example :

You : Guyz ...look at that girl over there ! She's really fat ! I bet any chairs she sits on will break !
..the whole group agrees and starts laughing ...

By saying that , you feel better . Why ? Cause you are not fat .... cause you don't have ugly teeth like the other girl and the list goes on and on . When you gossip about other people , you don't often look at yourself first . At the end of the day , you'll just the same as the other girl . People who usually talks bad stuff about other people's physical looks are not satisfied with how they look . They think they are not pretty enough and blah ...blah ...blah . They cannot accept the way they look . Why ? Just because someone says so . At the end of the day , what really matters is not what other people think about us but what we think about ourselves . If you think you are ugly , you are . If you think you are beautiful , you are . Don't care what the heck people says about you . You wore a beautiful dress for yourself , not for other people .

Having a big butt , not so perfect teeth , too much flabs , too dark , too fair and blah ...blah . Just because of that you are ugly ? No ! The Bible did not say so . We are all equal in the sight of God . No one is more prettier or more better . Each person is unique in their own way and at the same time , same . We are all humans .

So , people . Listen up ! Stop those gossips and nonsense . Before you say anything about other people , look at yourself first . If people say any bad stuff about how you look . Just tell them : Thank you for your compliment ! I'm glad I have ( not so perfect teeth / big butt / big nose ...+++ ) At least , I'm unique ! For your information , no one is perfect !

If you still think you are ugly and all that kind of nonsense . Let me tell you again ! You are just perfect the way you are ! Don't let anything change you ! Because that is what makes you who you are . If you think that no one loves and cares about you , just remember this one thing . God does . Loves and cares about you !

....no one is perfect yet everyone is unique ....

Mainstream Music vs Christian Music?

What is mainstream music actually ? The ones that we often hear at the radio ? People like Avril , Chris Brown , +++ sings mainstream music . Most of the 'mainstream music' that we hear nowadays are about one thing and I think you know what it is . What is so great about 'mainstream music' ? All the 'mainstream artists' just wants the fame and fortune . Ya , they want to sing cause they have the passion and they got the talent.

Even Christian artists have talents but there is a big difference between Christian artists and 'Mainstream artists' . Christian artists sing for the Glory of God while the other sings for the glory of themselves .

What is so great about 'mainstream music' ? It's all about 'love' , money and blah blah . Worldly stuff that would not last forever or in another words ...desires of the flesh . While Christian music is about love ..pure love ..love that is everlasting ...about Jesus and how much He loves us . I'll name a few such as the Planet Shakers and Hillsong and Chris Tomlin . They sing for the Glory of God .

Nick Vujicic . A guy without hands and legs . Yet he is grateful for what he has . We normal humans suffer more than him . Why ? Because most of us are just not grateful for what we have . We think we are not beautiful ..that we are ugly and all those sorts of stuff . But the Bible did not say that . It didn't say having many pimples means you are ugly . We are all equal in the sight of the Lord .

No matter what you are going through , I just want you to know that you are not alone . That God is with you . Every step you take , God will guide you . When you fall and make mistakes , people will leave but God will never leave nor forsake you .

tat's all ...
it's da faith da matters ..
i hope tat one day u will be able to see the truth ...

Poem: Amazing Love

A Video 4 u




I was lost but now I'm found ,
I was once blind but now I see ,
I was once sick but now I'm healed ,
I was once living in darkness but now I'm in the light .

I never knew it was possible ,
It seems so incredible ,
A love that is never ending ,
Filling the emptiness in my life .

A Father , a Saviour ,
A man so pure and true ,
Why did He had to suffer and die ?
Just to save us from our sins .

I would never could imagine but I know it's true ,
The kings and kings and the Son of God ,
Willing to die on the cross for us , who is full of sins ,
A love so pure and true , no one could ever imagine .

We are just normal men who doesn't deserve your love ,
But yet You came to earth to suffer and die ,
I'm not worthy , I'm full of sins ,
But yet You still say that anyone who believes is welcomed into Your Kindom to be Your children .

I'm not perfect , I can't do great things ,
I can't climb Mount Everest or even get straight A's ,
But in Your Name , I can do even more great things ,
Because in Your Name , nothing is impossible .

Now I know that You are the true One ,
The Only One , a God that is full of love, kindness and compassion ,
I'm proud to be Your children ,
Because Your love is so pure ,
A sinless man who is willing to do sacrifice His life to give life unto the world .

...so now i challenge you ..
...are you willing to take this step to know this God that is full of love with an open heart ?...
...eventhough , it may change your life forever ?...

...its the faith that matters ..

...katz....alwayz&forevaz,,,


A video 4 ya'll 2 enjoy !

Diary : Jalan-jalan , Cari Makan

Bored . Nothing to do .... Okay , actually I have tons of work to do . I have to study for my upcoming exam that is on October 30 2008 . I studied till : Sejarah 6/11 topics , Geografi 8/16 , Maths : Done :) , Science 3/7 , KH 1/9 ???

You must think I'm crazy . Exams is coming soon less than 2 weeks and I'm sitting at my computer writing crap . But I really don't have any mood to study . It can be kind of boring 'sometimes' ...

Today has been a very busy day . Going to ' rumah terbuka ' for ' Hari Raya ' . Going from house to house . This morning , I woke up at 10 am . Watching cartoon at tv . Just at the time I wanted to take a shower , the electricity went off ! Luckily , it wasn't at night . If not , it can be kind of scary . Bathing in the dark toilet . It'll be even scarier if you have a very big mirror in your bathroom ! ...scary ...

Then , I went to Restoran Yusram Thai . The food was okay but we got RM3 duit raya , a magazine , two books and a key chain . So I was happy :) Later on , my friend and I wen to another's friend house . The food there was superb ! Rendang , lemang and curry :) ..sedapnyee ... . We got RM 5 as ang pau :)

The third place was my Moral teacher's house . There were so many people ! One group goes , another group comes . Ya , they had a lot of delicious food . But ...hmmm...sedehnya .The last one was my friend's house . It wasn't actually open but we went there just to visit . We ate some cookies :)

At last , I reached home at 7.05 pm . Half day , visiting houses . :) Now : Doing nothing . I have no idea why I feel my bones are ' rapuh ' . As if , it's going to break any time .Anyway , my story of 'Jalan-jalan , cari makan ' ends here . If you want to go to any open houses next year , just give me a call : 35554677-078-776 43 231 . I know my number is 'kind of long ' . but that is why it's special . It's called ' The Pluto Line ' . Only people who live at Pluto will be able to call this number ...haha ...:P ..

Special : Recipe For Hapiness

Preparation time : A lifetime

Ingredients

3 cups of love
1 cup of kindness
1 handful of hard times
1 teaspoon of goodwill
1 teaspoon of patience
1 liter of prayers for mixing smiles to taste

Method

1 . First , pour in three cups of love and a cup of kindness . Mix and taste .
2. If the mixture tastes too sweet , add some hard times .
3. If too many stones form , add a teaspoon of goodwill and a tablespoon of patience .
4. Then , throw in a few smiles and mix well .
5. To make everything mix well , add in a cup of prayers .

* There is no fixed recipe of happiness . Include or exclude ingredients according to taste *

-got from the English Text Book ( Form 1 ) ..page 197

Waiting For A Miracle ( Short Story )

I never thought that I would be here . Everything I had , I lost . All in an blink of an eye . The tragedy that took my loved ones away .Leaving me all alone . All by myself .

The voice of my History teacher woke me up and brought me back to the present .

" Marie , what were you dreaming about ? Your boyfriend ? " shouted Mr.Farid .

I stood there silently without an answer as he look at me straight into my eyes . He was holding a long 'rotan' waiting for my answer for the previous history question . I could already feel myself sweating . I knew it was coming and it did . I shouted in pain . Both of my palms was reddish turning blue .

Everyone in the class was silently laughing at my stupidity . All of them except for my close friend , Sheila . She was giving me a signal . Telling me that everything was going to be fine . ]

No one in the class really understands me except for Sheila . She's just like me . An alien . No one really cares or loves us . To them , we are just some people who have lost their families . It stops till there .

If you were wondering if we ever had the wanting of a real family , of course we have . We want a real family. To feel some love and care but we knew it was impossible . You can never bring the dead to live . The dead will always stay dead .

I knew deep down in my hear , I wanted something . Something or someone who could fill the emptiness in my heart . My life . I want my family back . I want to live in the past . All I wanted was the impossible . I dream the impossible . Things that will always remain as dreams .

Back then , I was waiting . I am still waiting . I am waiting for a miracle .

..katz...alwayz&forevaz...