When It Takes Over

Everyone knows this yet everyday we are still amazed at how time passes by so fast. You wake up in the morning and realize it's your birthday today. You were brushing your teeth when you looked up in the mirror and realized a few wrinkles on your forehead. The teacher is teaching in the classroom when you suddenly realized, you're not 15 anymore. Rather than Maths, it's Additional Maths. Rather than Science, its Biology, Physics and Chemistry.

It's already April and my birthday is approaching. Lately, I've been so busy with competitions that I forget to spend a little time for myself. Didn't even have the time to think. Practice over. Eat. Sleep. Wake up and repeat the routine all over again. I was so busy that even the weekends I was at school or somewhere. All of that made me realize of how a robot I can be all in the name of certificates. It was worth it though. Through all these, I made new friends, built relationships and put myself in situations that I never knew I could handle. It tested my capability and my determination to get what I want. I am glad that my hard work paid off. Now, I finally get to be in class like an ordinary student. Oh, it is heaven!

With great power comes great responsibility. That is indeed true. I have many commitments in school. When someone calls me, it is because I have to finish up something or arrange a meeting or what so ever not. I just love the feeling when I look at my handphone and there is no missed calls or no messages. It feels as if I have nothing else left to do. But of course, that is totally BS. There is always something I need to complete and right now, I really need to study. Can you imagine ? Three weeks of missing class?

My little moments of pleasure now are the moments when I get the chance to read a novel or just listen to music and do absolutely nothing. Even if just for a moment. A moment of total peace.

As I've said, my birthday is coming soon. It's on 6th June, just so you know. Last year, I went to Langkawi with Calister and papa. Drank lots of kampai! Saw a shirtless guy jogging on the street :D Yes, I'm getting older. HaHa. Hopefully, I'll be able to go out of the country for at least 1 week and celebrate my birthday there! I've been waiting to go to 'watermelon' for so long!!! It would definitely be a dream come true.

Till next time,
Katherine :)

School in Less Than A Week

I know I've said that I would post the 2nd Part of the Zombies and I will but not now. Don't really have the mood to continue with that post just yet. But no worries, for the 2nd Part would be an awesome one!

This is me. Blogging. Just finished changing the sofa covers. Took A LOT of effort. Changed the curtains. Found an egg hive :( EWW. So you must be wondering, why in the world would I do everything by myself. The answer is simple. Because I don't have a maid like all you rich people. Haha. =P

I have debate practice on Wednesday. Haven't been debating for so long !!! Still have a lot to learn but it would an interesting experience! Have to search and write so much time. I have a little grey file for all my debating stuff :) I like being organized and neat. It's much better and obviously, much easier. Honestly, I don't understand people who can actually STAND being all unorganized and messy. How do they live their life ??

If one day, they can't search something they one due to their messiness. And it is something really, really important. I would laugh at them and tell them, PADAN MUKA!! Oh. My. Gosh. I am so mean but well, it's the truth. Well, hopefully they'll learn their lesson. I hate working with people who are messy so if you are reading, start learning how to actually be neat! Read a book or something if you really don't know. And people who actually pride themselves on their untidiness are STUPID!

So that was a little insight of my brain. HAHA.
My PMR results came out last Thursday. I expected to get like 5 A's but amazingly, I got 7 A's !! That is good, I guess. Only A's :) Science was quite hard because I didn't study but amazingly, I got A :) Most probably, the Ministry of Education lowered the percentage like really, really low. Maybe 70 is already A or lower. The reason because the subject is taught in English. It is very easy to get A for subjects like English, Mathematics and Science. That is the reason why a lot of my friends who are 'not that good' in English got A. Sorry if I sound mean but that is the fact.

A lot of my friends that got straight A's actually cried when they received their results. I guess they really worked hard to obtain it. When I received mine, I felt nothing. As if it was... well, nothing. I should have been crying or extremely happy but I wasn't. I was just glad. I was happy too because I've been praying to God to get straight A's and finally I did. The thing about me is no matter how much or how hard I study or do something, I'm never satisfied. It's as if that I didn't so enough hence I felt like I didn't deserve to get 7 A's. But I guess, in some ways. That's a good thing because then, I'll always try my hardest and because, I feel it is never enough. I'll never stop trying until finally, I get what I want. The best thing about getting the results after working really hard isn't the A's itself but feeling of satisfaction. That you can actually work and make something work in the end. That you do actually have a worth and not useless for nothing. I guess it's better to work hard and get the results rather than do nothing but get the results as well.

Well, as all of you know. School is starting next week. In like 6 more days.... so I'll be really, really busy! Preparing for school and of course, cleaning the house. I need to buy a new school back. Sew my badges. Iron my uniforms. Buy my school books. Clean up my desk. Arrange my new Form 4 reference books and everything in between. In a nutshell, I'm actually quite excited to get back to school. Get to know who are my new teachers. Get to learn new subjects. Get to experience school itself as a Form 4 student. I guess the best part of it is that I would actually get to find out how far and how much would I actually work myself in order to get succeed. I would get to learn my real capabilities and I'm sure it would be a very interesting experience.

Cleaning the house, going to school everyday, studying, debating, church, interact responsibilities, mandarin classes... It will definitely be a very busy year but that is exactly the reason why I am so excited about it all. I also made a vow to myself to read a novel/magazine before I go to sleep everyday. Iron my 5 uniforms on Sundays so I would not need to iron my uniform every morning and waste electric and money. Read novels when I have my free time. At least blog once a month. To study at least 3 hours a day excluding school work. Start on my school assignments as soon as it is given. Finish my school work in time and ASAP. To not delay any work or assignments for if I do that, it will finally bite me back in my ass and I do not like being bitten at my bottom. It would hurt since I do not have enough flesh there. But I guess for all you other pillow-butted people, it wouldn't matter. HAHA. And of course, to read the Bible and Daily Bread everyday. It is of utmost important. My relationship between me and God must never be neglected. But of course, having fun while doing everything!!

2011. :D It will be an exciting year and I will have fun doing everything cause I choose to.
Your life is how you want it to be. Your life is AWESOME because you say it is.
Perceptions. Is. Everything. Enjoy Life while u still have it. U know you are going to die soon. So enjoy life while you are still alive.
It's easy. Just say sorry and everything will be okay. :D

Zombies In My Dream (Part 1)

So like, in the holidays. My sleeping time is really f***ed up.

I wake up at 5pm and go to sleep at 6-8 am.
Once, I slept at 8.30 am and had to wake up at 9.30 in order to get ready for church.
ONE hour of sleep. What was I doing???
Watching the Last Song(novel by Nicholas Sparks)
Actually, wasn't really watching the show. Just looking at the handsomely gorgeous Liam Hemsworth and eating baked-oven chickens with mustard and BBQ sauce and cheese.
I was hungry!

Anyway, waking that late and sleeping that early really does stuff to your brain.
I know now I'm like writing shit but I don't care. People like to read shit anyways that's why you are reading my post right now.
Straight to the point. I had a really, really weird dream.
Wanted dreams with HOT guys instead I got zombies!!!! I mean like wth???
You're thinking a really hot guy is coming your way until 'he' gets nearer, you find out he's actually some flesh-eating monster with blood all around his face.

Chapter 1: The Arrival

So my church have reached the camp site. Its really nice but really old. And there's like one big place as the main hall. So we have our lunch. The youths were so excited as ALL of us were going to get one big, big room just for ourselves. One side for guys and one side for girls.
And the room was AWESOME. Really modern and stuff. The youth was big, like 40 plus???

Chapter 2: An Invitation

Yap(Kar Kay) and I were talking shit to each other, as usual. Until one of the workers of the hotel came and said that both of us were going to get a free Special Royal Deluxe Room. And he asked if we would like it. We were like 'obviously we were going to take it' so we did. And guess where it was. Just downstairs of the youth room. When you alight the stairs, you would see a really big door glass with two girls guarding it. It was the Special Royal Deluxe Room. And we entered. Ignoring the weird fact about the two girls outside. I mean like they didn't even spoke as if they were dolls or something.

Chapter 3: Special Royal Deluxe Room

When we entered, the first thing that caught our mind that the room was really big just for two people. It had two red-white queen beds that were far apart as if there were gates to block me and Yap from each other if both of us were at our beds. But the surprise didn't stop there. When we went even deeper into the room we saw a really, really old haystack or something. It was like a barn without the animals. It was extremely old and the 'barn' was narrow with two beds. At its sides, there were big holes enough to fit like 7 people in it. And you guessed right, it was built of wood. So we finally decided to sleep at the 'barn'. It would be a new experience and we knew it would be fun.

Chapter 4: Strangers Among Us

Finally, it was dinner time and all of us gathered at the dinner place. But I began to notice strangers among the church people and so I thought maybe they were just guests of this hotel. As I was eating with the other youths, I slowly began to realize that these strangers were not talking to other people and they were faint-like, almost invisible. But that is just so weird. So I stood up and started to walk to the blond-hair girl. But she did not respond. She just stare right at me, wait....through me. As if I wasn't even in front of her. Immediately, I knew that she wasn't a person but a spirit, somehow, someway bounded on earth or more precisely at this particular hotel.

I knew I had to tell Yap about the strangers but she didn't believe me. She couldn't even see them. But I didn't give up. I kept telling about these strangers I saw among us. She didn't believe me at first, but I don't know what happened but she suddenly had belief in her eyes. Then, I went to that stranger again with Yap this time. I thought Yap would not be able to see the stranger but I was wrong.
Me: How is she able to see you? Is that even possible? I thought I was the only one would could see you?
Stranger: It is her. It is like a gift. The moment she started to believe that spirits truly do exist, it triggered something in her brain and from then on, she could see me.
Me: She can see you just be believing?
Stranger: It is a strong weapon.

From then on, I started to see even more spirits. I tried to talk to them but they would never respond except for the blond-haired girl I met the other night. But eventhough they would not talk to me, I could sense they were trying to convey a certain message to me. One word popped into my brain. Danger.

Chapter 5: Sweet Dreams

After we had our dinner and service that night, we went back to our special room but was surprised when we saw 3 other people in our room. In the barn. In the big hole. These 3 people were our seniors at school. But why were they here?
Me: Why are all of you here?
Senior Girl: Well, we came to this hotel trying to find a room.
Me: Okay. But how did you even know this place. How did you come into our room?
Senior: We saw this hotel online at your facebook page and the room wasn't locked.
Me: Okay. But like can you get out now?
Senior: What? You're asking us to get out?
2nd Senior: We can't.
Kar Kay: What do you mean you can't?
2nd Senior: We just can't(totally serious face on). The room is nice anyway. Haha.
Me: Whatever. More the merrier I guess.
3rd Senior: You have to get of here. You have to get out of here.
Me(tomato face): What the hell do you guys want? We let you stay here and now you want us to get the bloody hell out of here? It's our room just like FYI.
1st Senior: She's not talking to you.
2nd Senior: Don't worry. She's always like that. Trying to act scary and stuff. Just go to sleep girls.

So we slept. But suddenly in the middle of the night I woke up. I started to see things. Things that previously were not in this room.
Little boys, little gates. Shutting down on your face.
Bloody red, Bloody white. Walking sticks eating you up.
Grey and black. Black and blue. Beware, because they're coming to you!

I wanted to open my eyes but I couldn't and yet I could see these things and hear them. It finally banged my head and I realized, I was dreaming. All of these were real. When I looked at the direction of the two beds. I saw two little boys. Very short. Very white and pale. They were wearing red dresses. Bloody red. They were closing the gates. There were two gates. Trapping us in the barn. I was terrified. I didn't want to open my eyes still because I knew if I did I would see them right in front of my eyes and I wouldn't be able to get out. I had to find a way.

P.S: There are two parts of the story. The second one will be posted later. :)

How Old Am I ? *tagged by Caliz.

[x] You know how to make a pot of coffee

[x] You keep track of dates using a calender

[ ] You own a credit card

[] You know how to change the oil in a car

[x] You've done your own laundry

[ ] You can vote in an election

[x] You can cook for yourself

[ ] You think politics are interesting

[x ] You show up for school late a lot

[x ] You always carry a pen/pencil in your bag/purse/pocket

[] You've never gotten a detention

[ ] You have forgotten your own birthday

[x ] You like to take walks by yourself

[x ] You know what credibility means, without looking it up

[ ] You drink caffeine at least once a week

[x] You can count to 10 in another language

[] When you say you're going to do something you do it

[] You can mow the lawn

[x] You study even when you don't have to

[x] You have hand washed a car before

[x] You can spell experience, without looking it up

[ ] The people at Starbucks know you by name

[] Your favorite kind of food is take out

[x] You can go to the store without getting something you don't need

[x] You understand political jokes the first time they are said

[x] You can type pretty quick

[ ] Your only friends are from your place of employment

[ ] You have been to a Tupperware party

[ ] You have realized that practically no one will take you seriously unless you are over the age of 25 and have a job

[ ] You have more bills than you can pay

[x] You have been to the beach

[] You use the internet every day

[ ] You have traveled overseas for more than 5 times

[ ] You make your bed in the morning

[x] You realized people of the opposite sex might just make better friends.

GRAND TOTAL:19*** Repost this with the subject as: I'm (how old you are) but I act like (what you got on the test) *** The number of people you have to tag is the number you got on the test.

Grand Total: 17 !!! Yeah :)

The Hairy Blog

Okay!
I admit, it's been a very, very long time since I've posted.
Well, I was just too lazy :P

Recently, my school choral speaking team joined a com.
We got 4th. Beaten by Subang schools! Even one stole our script last year.
!!!! Copy cats...

Anyway, the choral speakers did an excellent job. =)
Next year, we'll beat them all.

Have I told you? I've been debating lately. YES. I'm proud to call myself a debater.
I've just joined this debating world and I can 100% tell you it's awesome!!!
We were only just 1 more point till the next level !!!
Well, 2 weeks wasn't a very long time to prepare.

I'm scared. I have my PMR trials next week.
Guess what is on the first day?
SEjarah!!! Greatness!!!
Pee muh pants out.
Niway, I'm determined for 1st. Nothing less.

OMG! I gtg nw.
Oh yes, HOTNESS= Damon Salvatore
Vampire Diaries >3

Lip Balms and Stupid Boys

O-M-G.
How shall I start?

Crisis!!! I lost my lip balm. Not 1 but 2. Two people! Two!!! My favourites and my only ones. What have i done to deserve such punishment? I feel so gedix well maybe, I am. With a big two ha-s!

Anyway, I'm having my exams now. Just total crap. Bullshit. Cow dang. Dog's poop. Cat's peep. Anything that you can imagine. Seriously. I've just sat for my BM and Science Paper 1 today. BM paper 1 was tough with all the usual crappy stuff but this time, extra shit! Science paper 1 was too easy. It was like taking a stupid test. All we had to do was like to find the odd one out of all the options? I so regretted studying HARD for it!!! And they gave us pee. Yellow pee. Come on, guys.... Honestly, can't you make it like a normal test? One too hard, one too easy. ape hal ni??? mslah dunia btol... huh!!!

I can't wait for the exams to be ovverrrrr!!! It's my b'day! It's my b'day! On 6th June, Sunday. Last day of exams is 4th June, Friday. I am going to Langkawi. So fricking excited, people! Hopefully, I'll get to see many hot guys there. haha. Calister would be going there as well. Party! Party! The price is quite reasonable bout 1.5? Okay, eh? I'll go there and get high,drunk. Dance the whole. If you're lucky, I'll start to strip. yeah, rite... as if that's going to happen...dream on, boys! Of course, of course. Now, we can't forget the food, can we? Oh my gosh. I'll eat tons and tons of shrimps. sedapnye...

Boys! Smart boys! Hot boys! Stupid boys! Crazy boys! Omg. I really like a really, really stupid and frickin really hot(and cute) boy downstairs. =) I call him H for Hottie. Haha. If you know me well, you'll know what it also holds,haha. Gosh! Gosh! Gosh! I'm so totally into him. Fuck him, you know why? Because I can't stop thinking about him!!! I mean, he has been like 'chasing' me for 2 months?

Honestly, the first time I saw him...I didn't thought he was hot or anything. It was as if he didn't exist. BUT when he started talking to me, i was omg-ed. hot, nice, cute, sweet(i guess). What else do you want?!

I'm in a confused state right now. He asked 'cpl' before but I didn't exactly reject or accept. So scandal? He calls me using 'cute names' at times. Does it mean anything. Whenever he sees me, he calls my name. Even his friends calls his name and stuff when they see me, as if we're already an item. My friend's balax thinks that I'm already with him when I'm not but he doesn't believe me. What does this actually means? Kite ni scandal, couple or juz fooling with each other. I guess its everything in between.
I hate you H! Just be honest with me. You like me or you don't like me? If you really like me, just say lah. What is so hard? Very stressful, you know. Thinking about this kind of stuff. Omg-ed. I can't stop thinking about him.

What do you think?

-kat.
....in luv...or sumthiin likee tatt

Gone, Taken by Death ...

Gone. Forever. Into a different dimension.

I couldn't believe when I heard the news from my friend, Zulfahmi. It was a Monday morning, the teacher announced that the Muslims were going to have bacaan yasin(i hope i spelled it right) and we, non-Muslims were supposed to go to the dewan. Dewan Anggerik.

Levi's, big bold specs. First time trying. Scared. haha. Everyone was usha-ing(looking) like hell! As if I was some kind of alien. But hey, many complimented me. Some said it didn't suit me. Do I look like I care? It's style, baby. And since when wearing what you like is wrong?

Then, I entered class. That was when I heard the news. My friend passed away on a Sunday, 5.30 pm. I honestly thought he was joking. How could it be? It wasn't possible!!! I knew he was in the hospital but I thought was going to be okay. Or so I thought. How wrong was I.....

Unfair. That's the perfect word. Why? Did God had to take him? Did death envy his life so much to take him away? Didn't He thought about his friends and family?

Apis. That's what we call him. Cute and chubby. Always smiling. A little shy. He liked me since last year but I only thought of him as a friend. We msg each other quite often. He never gave up on me. I promised him that I would go out with him to SP this month but the day never came, death took him away.

I dedicate this song to him.



I regret not spending enough time with him. I regret those times when I made him sad or angry. I regret not telling him that he means so much to me. I regret. I regret. Well, I guess now he's just a memory.

I wish, you were still here,
I wish that I knew you had little time,
So I would cherish every moment we had.

I thought everything was going to be okay,
I didn't know you were going away,
I hope you had achieved everything you ever wanted,
In those 18 years you've lived.

Don't you worry,
We'll always remember you,
You'll live on in our memories and lives.

In the future,
When my children feels sad or down,
I'll just tell them,
About the little boy who fell, got up and smile.

Sajak ini ditujukan khas kepada Apis,
Seorang insan yang selalu hapi. =)

1992-2010
Without you, we wouldn't be who we are now.
Thank you for being our friend.

-katherine. ily. imy.